bad..... very bad

today is 'zuo dung' (i can't type chinese in the shop so han yu ping yin will have to do) as in we chinese celebrate the coming of spring. went over to my relative's HUGE bungalow for dinner. my aunt cooked up a feast but i hardly touched anything. hardly any appetite to eat. =( otherwise, today has just been slow. really slow. as if time is in a stand still. sigh... i feel like screaming. don't ask my why my temper is flaring. i don't know either. agh. beckie is not a very nice person to talk to right now. so off i go into seclusion until my mood brightens up a bit and rainbow starts sprouting from my ears.