i've got things up my ass

physiology exam is tomorrow and i have yet to cover all the topics. hopefully i'll make it in time. agh, i hate exams. anyways, foundation graduation party is coming up. the more i think about it, the more i don't feel like going because i know i'll be really uncomfortable. well, it's just me. i don't like going to these kinda occasions. i don't like being in a place full of people. i don't like the hassle of putting on make up, dressing pretty just for one night. i feel fat. heck, i am fat. ok, so not fat, fat. but i've gained a lot of weight. more than i'd like and i don't feel comfortable in my skin anymore. so i'm anti-social. sue me. i just don't like occasions like these. physiology exam tomorrow. shit. i'm nervous.