lost..... and yet to be found

who is that person staring right back at me in the mirror? i've changed so much over the past 3 months i hardly recognize who i am anymore. unhappy everyday, even smiling takes effort. i miss those days where i'm laughing and smiling all the time. i can't even remember how it feels like to be happy anymore. can't remember how it feels like to smile oh so naturally, smile because i wanted to not because i needed to put up a brave front. i'm crumbling inside. i hate the way i'm feeling. i'm trying to move on..... alone. try as i might, i always end up landing back at square one. how does one move on? how do you let go? i WANT to be happy. i DESERVE to be happy. i don't want to be stuck in this dark, lonely place anymore. it's frightening.