and down again

maybe it's the coffee or the lack thereof. been feeling down today. i'm a curious being. a little TOO curious for that matter. why oh why did i read the stuff?!!! feeling the pain all over again. the ex from hell. that's what i am. still have not decide on whether or not i should sort things out when i get back. moving heaven and earth just to get what i want but now that i'm close to getting it, i'm not so sure i want it anymore. life's a bitch and so am i.