i will and i must!

i have to get back up again. i can't stay on the ground forever. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. one day, the hurt will go away. my heart won't feel like it's been ripped into a million pieces. one day, i'll be able to let go of all the anger and hate that i'm harboring. one day. that day will come and i know it. returning home on the 18th. 3 weeks before i return. it'll be weird. this would be the first time i'm flying back without him. well, i suppose i shouldn't be dwelling on these things. went out with aunt today. she doesn't know that i'm still hurting. i must be putting up a very good facade. this facade will one day turn into reality. i must stay strong.