happenings in the house

so, we got back home from dinner with Keen's family (thank you!) and leslie went ohmygoodnessmissuniverse!!!!!! he got settled nicely on the couch while eric sat on the floor and they started giving comments. leslie, being leslie, got pissed because he thinks that eric's comments are bulljack. look, people are entitled to their own opinion. it's his TV for goodness sake! if he hadn't taken it over, you wouldn't be sitting there on the couch watching miss universe. jeez! give the man some respect, would ya?! stop snapping at him!!! it's very annoying.

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if not for the daily calls back home, i would'v gone insane a long time ago. you know who you are. =)

trust me to screw things up

i think i may have screwed up the exams big time. sigh.... i just hope i'll be able to pass this stupid exam. a pass is all i need. gah. enough time spent away from the books. =/

exhausted

finally, today is the day i get to rest! well, after i hand in my assignment that is. i think i'm sick again... or it could be the lack of sleep. sigh... i'm so tired i don't know myself anymore. went to uni only to find out that the lecture room was empty, save for 5 people. will have to make another round to uni to hand in the assignment. arugh!!!!!! no worries about my bladder. feeling much better. the connection is unbearably slow today!!! stupid TPG! i have a huge headache. i need some sleep.

boo hoo hoo

why does shit like these always happen to me? whinge, whinge, whinge, whinge. that's what i do best. but seriously.... i've contracted UTI. of all things to happen to me! so i was happily urinating away last night and suddenly, PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh.. the pain! and the feeling of constantly wanting to urinate is there... and when you go to the loo? nothing comes out. even if something did come out, it's PAINFUL!!! so i'm thinking, well, it'll pass. it'll get better in the morning. but no... it hasn't gotten any better! so now, i'm going to the doctor and dragging Keen with me because.... because i can. oh, and if you're wondering about my hygiene? don't be. i'm clean! i clean myself up real well if you must know. i can't help it if bacteria wants to cling on to my uterus or... urinary tract!! statistics shows that every woman will contract UTI at least once in their lifetime. tough. i'm already exhausted as it is, and now this happens! i can't afford to get sick now. sigh.....

can't wait

can't wait 'till the holidays. i so need a break. uni is unbearable. we've got this journal that's due on friday, there's a test on thursday, exams are in 2 weeks... and the exam time table looks like this: june 6,8,14,15,16,17,20. WHAT THE HELL WERE THEY SMOKING?!!! 4 consecutive days?! want me to die ah!!!???! and i'm not prepared for anything! ~~~~~_^ and it doesn't help that the weather lately is fucked up. it gets really cold around midnight, then it gets really warm around 3 or 4 in the morning. how the hell am i supposed to sleep with weather like this?!!! idiot! so anyways, here's the pictures taken during the foundation party. slide show of pictures taken all throughout the year. brings back memories this. =( back row (left to right): Keen, Rosanna, Leslie front row (left to right): Me, Virginia, Kenze Leslie, Me, Keen back row: Keen, Bryan, Gordon (my physics teacher), Leslie, Kenze front row: Virginia, Me, Rosanna back row: Leslie front row: Me, Virginia, Kenze Me, Leslie's mom, Keen (cool as cucumber) those were the days....

mommy dearest

mom and dad will be going over to KL tomorrow. goodness knows how long they will be there and shortly after, mom will be going over to Kuantan to visit Miss Kam. mom met her a few years ago in SS2, where she goes for her chiro treatments with that stupid. stupid. STUPID, no good, scum Eric Voo. yes, i shall mention his name here because he deserves it. so fucking sue me. the next time i see him? i'll bloody rip his head off his shoulders. anyways, anger aside, there's where mom met Kam. it turns out that they share the same name, only the sur name is spelt differently. how cool is that? so anyways, last year, Miss Kam was diagnosed with.... iforgotwhatsitcalleddisease. it's this virus thing that eats up your organs.... slowly.... but surely and i heard that there's no cure. and last year, she was in really bad shape. was hospitalized for 2 months or so and the saddest part? it's fatal. it's a good thing that mom is willing to fly to Kuantan to spend some time with her. after all, we don't know how much longer she's going to be with us. ~_^

tired, but life goes on....

i found that rather rude, that you'd tell me you're not eating after i finished cooking. why can't you tell me beforehand? i'm cool. i left you dinner regardless. i was really looking forward to coming home... i even turned down dinner just to get back home earlier. but now? i wish i'd gone to Box Hill instead. gah! need to continue with assignment. stupid. stupid. stupid thing!

things aren't going too well...

sorry for the lack of posts. the past few days has been busy. i initially wanted to rant about my brother but decided against it. some other day maybe. anyways, things back at home aren't going too well. grandma had another fight with grandpa and she moved in with us. apparently grandma is giving mom a really hard time. as i've said before, grandma has Alzheimer's Disease and her memory is fading as the days go by and my parents know nothing when it comes to taking care of people with the disease. and i can't help but wonder if she'll remember me when i go back home at the end of the year. =( i hope mom isn't straining her back too much. must be hard taking care of grandma with an aching body. i'm stressed. exams are around the corner and i feel as if i don't know anything. sigh....

my eyes!!!!

trying to study but my eyes refuse to focus! i have to force them to focus and it hurts. what's wrong with 'em?!!!! urgh.

not quite myself

the day has just started and already i feel really low. feel like lashing out at someone. !@#@$#%!!!!!! anyways, aunty will be leaving on Saturday. i've gotten so used to her here that i sorta don't want her to leave. what can i say? the month that she's here has been good on me (well, at least i don't have to worry about anything concerning the house) and when she leaves, i'll be the one that has to handle everything again. back to the cranky self. sigh... i'm really dreading it. and that Eric! not that he has gotten under my nerves lately... or maybe he has. i think he's stealing my tea. can't be too sure. but i think he is. i'll wait a while longer and see if i can catch him red handed. then all hell will break loose. nikki, you can dream and dream summore about my Evisu sweater. =p and yes, the way we chat very weird. what to do? when you're at the laptop, i'm not. and when i'm at the laptop, you're not. and why is Dino asking about pads and tampons anyway? want to get for the person that likes his 'little sword'? =D interesting..... tlc, anyone? to make me feel better????

prosecuted

received a phone call (or rather, a couple of 'em since i can't make out what that idiot was trying to say to me and passed to phone to Keen) telling me that i've been prosecuted for taking nudie pics of nice, innocent children. =-=" okay. right. turns out that it's a prank call. fuggin idiot. so then i thought it's gonna be over since who ever called told Keen that it was a prank call but no........ that idiot has to call back and taunt me some more. what the hell man. can't he move on to another number? why me?!!!! =( now i'm afraid of receiving calls all over again. yes, i'm chicken. sue me. i want my daddy!!!! =( Australia sucks ass.

G'day

my poor blog. been neglecting you, haven't i? *strokes blog* Foundation Party came and went. 5th of may i think? tunrs out that it's not a formal event after all. =/ waste of money buying that dress of mine. anyways, the party was a huge disappointment. didn't get to meet as many people as i'd liked to. =( will put up pictures as soon as i get them. mother's day came and went. happy belated mommy's day to my mommy. poor mom didn't get anything. no romantic dinner, no gifts, no flowers.... all she had was vegetarian dumplings for dinner. i would so like to stranggle my dad when i see him! c'mo lah, dad. can't be more romantic issit?? and nikki, yes i do make the best fake mom out there and daddy is taking really good care of me. hahaha..... nah! better sayang your mom ar!!!! if not i disown you!!!! =p and what's up with the Evisu anyways? want my sweater or not?! *winks* called mom yesterday and it turns out that her body is aching again. =( i've asked her repeatedly to continue with her treatment but she won't listen. says that it costs too much to fly over to KL all the time. and of course other than the fact that she's waiting for me to finish my course so i can go back and treat her. but heck, that's in another 4 years. stubborn girl. and i don't know what to do. dad asked if i've learned any adjustment techniques. duh! of course not. hopefully the pain will eventually go away. don't want her to be in pain. =( talked about the house. dad asked if i'm coping. well, what can i say? no? would that change anything? like that would make him come here and make his baby girl better. to be honest, i'm envious Leslie and Chan. Leslie's mom came, Chan's parents are coming.... as for mine? well, they say that it's too expensive to travel here. *wails* but on the brighter side of things, they'll be coming at least once in the 5 years that i'm here. =/

i don't feel good about myself anymore

as stated above. i don't feel good about myself anymore. for starters, i'm 51 kg. i feel fat. for goodness sakes i'm only 152cm tall and i'm a bloody 51 kg. and you'd think that i'd be eating less to loose it. if it were only that simple. i get hungry all the time. and to make matters worse, i've got gastric problems. i can't let myself go hungry. so i eat. and eat. and eat. and eat. or get something sweet to drink. and it's cold here. so i get hungry even faster! i really don't mind being chubby. heck, i kinda enjoy being chubby. but at 51 kg?! agh! and i've gotten myself a belly. a belly so huge that i can't seem to hide it no matter how hard i try to suck it in. a belly so huge that when i sit, it actually folds. a belly so bloody huge i look as if i'm 5 months pregnant!!!!!!!! and then of course there's the legs. i've always been sensitive to how they look 'cause heck, they look bloody fat. which they are. the good news is that i managed to get it toned. at least a little bit. notice the past tense. that was last year. and now when i look at it, it's back to where it was! huge ass! can see patches of fat summore. =( then there's uni. for fuck's sakes we're doing 6 subjects this sem. how the hell are we supposed to study 6 subjects?!!!!!!!! hello? as if studying anatomy and spinal anatomy haven't already used up all my brain cells. then there's cd&m (chiropractic diagnosis and management). Phill has this knack of sensing who doesn't understand what and target questions at them thus making them feel stupid. ok, so i know has a good intention by doing so but heck, i don't know what i don't know and i only have so much time to use in one day (i think i'm just justifying me not knowing). then we've got physiology... which is relatively simple. so no complains there. and then there's biochemistry and biomechanics and biology and microbiology. but hello? we're doing a chiropractic course here. can somebody please tell me the relevance of studying biology and microbiology?! all in all, there is just too much to read and study. i don't think i can handle all this shit!!!! then there's the thought of disappointing my parents. with the rate things are going, i don't think i can even get through 1st year! what am i going to tell my parents in the event that i fail? tell them that it's too difficult for me? tell them that i'm not cut out to be a chiropractor? ahghaghaghahg!!!! i started revision the past few days and somehow, whatever i've read so far seems to alien to me. i'm trying my best, really. but i just can't seem to remember what's what. and it's frustrating. the more i get frustrated, the more i don't feel like studying. then i get frustrated all over again because i'm frustrated. and i think i'm getting sick. again! everything seems a lot more sharper.... amplified. little things like the buzzing of the TV seems to give me a major headache. AHGAHGHAGHAGHAHGAHG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

needs some tlc, this blog

i NEED to do something about this blog o' mine. it looks hideous, links have yet to be updated, and i'm still hoping to get a calendar... that works. hopefully i'll have enough time during the holidays to get whatever i need done in here.

i hope i don't get killed for this

the weird things that happen in the house. reason for the towel? to dry his hair..... by diffusion. =-="

i miss....

• i miss eating at Little Man Tai almost everyday
• i miss going up to Gayana for seafood
• i miss going up to Tuaran for breakfast
• i miss driving up to Sepanggar
• i miss going to Tiong's house
• i miss driving around Lintas hoping to bump into friends
• i miss driving around town at night
• i miss the adrenaline rush
• i miss learning about cars

gah, i'm homesick. and it doesn't help that exams are near and i know jack shit about anything. =(

the stupidity

while watching Initial D..... Keen: eh? strange.... Me: what? Keen: Takumi was stepping on the middle peddle right? what is the middle peddle again? Me: =-=""""""""""' Keen: the accelerator ka??? Me: ....... the brakes lah! Keen: oh, that's what i thought. goes to show how long since i last drove a car. Me: *faint* eh, boss, that doesn't justify you not knowing what the middle peddle is la!!!!