hubby from hell

just came back from richmond. went to yet another chinese restaurant. the food was great but... alas, someone just has to spoil the atmosphere!! that man... no, i don't think he's a man. more of a sissy!!! he was whining n whining n whining n whining... agh... and the way he eats. you'd think that he hasn't eaten since the last world war. sigh... he gobbles down food... wait.... swallow would be a better word for it. its like he doesnt take other people into consideration. he just eats and eats and eats thinking that since he'll be paying, might as well eat as much as possible before anyone else has the chance to steal his food away from him. and the area surrounding him is soooo dirty!!! some spastic person would have better table manners! and right after dinner, right when everyone puts down their respective chopsticks, he worries abour desert! i mean.. c'mon! not like they will forget about desert! they need time to clear the table, you know. sheeesh!!! he was afraid that the restaurant would rip him off his few pieces of fruits! what's with that man? and in the car, on the way back: hubby: what you think of dinner? wife: was ok. hubby: you think? the portions were so small. wife: no, it was ok. you're the one with the problem. hubby: no, i'm sure the portion was bigger the last time we went. they were trying to rip me off or something. and look at the fish tanks, so empty! are you sure thats even a seafood restaurant? wife: yes, i'm sure it is. hubby: but would you look at how empty the fish tanks are? would you go back to the restaurant? wife: i dont see why not. the food is pretty decent. hubby: really? jeez.. the portions were so small and so expensive. i would never go back there again! wife: look, the place is totally fine. stop whining about how small the portions were. hubby: but it was really small!!!! i'm not even full yet. wife: how can u not be full?! u hate 4 bowls of rice and practically all the side dishes! hubby: really.... and it goes on and on and on until we reach my place. jeez!!! he is the worst guy i've ever met, bad attitude, bad table manners, whines more than a sissy... definately a hubby from hell.

2 instant deaths

CYK just told me that his ex's friends or somewhere along that line, died from a car accident. 2 instant deaths. one the driver and the other his girlfriend. so sad... but i cant help feeling angry. i dont know them or anything... but... i cant help it. no, i do not sympathize for those who died but their family. to put it bluntly, it serves them right. kids shouldn't be racing. just because you are young does not make you invincible. how stupid can you get? as if putting your life at risk isnt bad enough, you go put someone else's life at risk. sigh.. its so sad. so sad. maybe its because i know what it feels like to have lost someone you knew. could never forget it. i do still occasionally dream about him lying on his death bed. so still... so cold... gone forever. a beloved friend. and last year, another dear friend got into a horrible accident. nearly lost his life. thank goodness he didnt. he was a lucky one. those who witnessed the accident was sure he was a goner. and this year, another member of ttss died in yet another car accident. so pls pls pls, dont do something foolish. thnk about the consequences, rite? its pretty much stupid to think you can get away with anything just because you're young.... my heart goes out to the grieving families. oh my... forgot another birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMOS CHIA!!!!!

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SIAW VUN!!!!!!

poor ol' bec

poor old bec. i'm so tired today i can hardly talk! now i'm making myself a nice cup of coffee and hopefully it will last me till later tonight. dinner with aunt will only start at around 9.30pm... if no one is late that is. oh.. last night was a blast. had a really wonderful time chatting with my aunt. but she has got nothing but bad news to tell me! she says that she wont be coming back to melb. says that its god's will! jeez... so ok.. she wont be back. but she was whining half the time how she loves melb and all that. haih... i mean if she loves it so much, then juz come back!!! there goes my plasma tv, my x-box, my ps2, my lovely weekends with my aunt, my free meals.... nah, that's not it. really... i miss my aunt. i want her to be back in melb. and she goes like 'ah... when u get urself a bf here, you wont be needing me anymore.' but then that wont be the case. even if i do get a bf here, i can still go over to her place during the wekends now, cant i? sigh.. well, guess you can't have everything. cool!!!!!! nikki kah is gona go for blink's concert today!! me wana go to!!!!! pack me in your hand bag eh?!!! have fun! neways, poor ol' bec got herself a very nasty paper cut!!! my skin has pratically cut off my nail and blood was dripping all over the place and i must say, i'm doing a really good job soaking the tissue with ma blood!!! ew ew ew!!!! and CYK was so kind to give me some, well, not some but a whole row of his band aid!!! thx thx thx!!! i hope the cut wont reopen when i shower... *touch wood* btw, i managed to drop physics. yeash!!!! so now i wont have to go to class on monday morning and wednesday afternoon! mwahaha!!! 3 days of half classes~ i am soo happy!!! oh, and got back my bio paper today. sigh.. only got a friggin 85% really, i could've done better! the highest was 95%.... shocker. sigh... VK says that i made a lot of silly mistakes. >=/ no worries. i'll get my title as best student again. you'll see.

dinner with aunt

just got back not long ago from dinner. boy, it was good!!! went to glen waverly... took around 45 mitnues?! my arse was growing roots into the chair already by the time we got there. so anyways, met up with my aunt's friends. they're kinda weird. one was cincin... live juz down lil' la trobe street... she was waaaaay beyond weird! my aunt wanted to introduce me to her, so we went over to her place for a short while. she opened the door to her apartment, talked to my aunt like i was transparent, my aunt made a move to go into her apartment, so i did the same and she wanted to lock me out!! she was about to close the door in my face... and the way she looks at me... like i'm some sort of 8 legged creature from space or something. that was so totally weird. and the way she talks... freaks me out. she just gives one word answers. and the way she stares out you is totally weird!!!! totally gives me the freaks!! and another friend of her is yi lin... we juz call her lin or linlin. she seemed kinda cold at first, still a wee bit odd for my liking but in the end, we started to warm up and we just hit it off. and her man, luke... i think, was an ok guy. not good looking at all, but a really nice personality. he gives off this warm n fuzzy vibe. good friend to have around. went to yi lin's house for a visit. oh my.. the house looks gorgeous! its a 3 bed room house, a large living room, large yard and the design looks great as well. i sure hope whatever we plan to rent next year looks as good as this one!! gonna meet my aunt again tomorrow night. goin out for dinner with cincin... sigh... i hope she doesnt give me her weird look... scares the living light out of me!!! me no like her! =( anyways, i'm off to bed. its past midnight and i have a full days class ahead of me tomorrow!!! sigh... good night people. btw, its merdeka day today!!!!!!!!

happy happy happy merdeka day, folks!!!!

still tired

finally got myself a new browser and i can finally type in my post column. i'm still tired from the previous night and my aching shoulders and arms are aching even more! i even have problem waking up this morning and trust me, this does not happen to me. i wake up when i want to, how i want to... my today... ZZZzzzZZzzz..... all i want to do is just sleep the day away. weather today is crap and wet. rain rain go away, little beckie wants to play. hope it stops raining soon. walking in the rain getting my jeans wet isnt very appealing.

life is good

I cant seem to be able to write in the post column. Damn blogger!!! Anyways, I totally forgot about my good friend’s birthday!!! My bad… my bad… so here it is,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WONG TXAI JIEN!!!!!!

Yay!!!! My aunt called and she’ll be here tomorrow!!!! Cant wait to see her! It’s been about one year since I saw her! And she never fails to get me a bottle of perfume or two every time she visits me. Hope she gets me another one this time~ =) oh oh oh… and thanks to my aunt, I get to eat nice tasty dinner in nice expensive restaurants! Heh… no tasteless food for me this week! Yay!!!! I’m still thinking about my decision to drop physics. I really don’t know if it’s the right thing to do. Sigh… after all, I did get an average score of 72 last term. But whether or not I’ll be able to keep up that average is another matter. Since term started, I’ve got no clue as what to Gordon was teaching. And I’ve got a lot of catching up on math to do!! How how how?! And I haven’t said anything to my family about me dropping physics… My body is still aching from last night especially my shoulders and arms… and I havent gotten much sleep today as well. Lets just hope that I manage to get a good night’s sleep tonight, ay? Going to class in zombie mode is not a very appealing. Mwahaha!!! Gona go to CYK’s for a drink. See you boootiful people later!

dinner with winnie

had dinner with winnie and co last night along with CYK and KTY. after that, we took a short stroll over to Federation Square and Crown and finally came back at around 12 or so. stayed up the whoooooole night fooling around and finally get to sleep at around 10am or so. i am sooooooooooo tired!!! every bone and muscle in my body is aching like mad.... i will never ever pull a stunt like this ever again!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHAN YIN KEEN!!!!!!!

he's finally 18! canot lock him out of the hostel anymore! =(

=(

constipation constipation constipation constipation. i am contipated. sigh.. it seems that sacrificing half eaten meals, goats, cows, chickens, lizards, cats, dogs and whatever not to the appropriate deities DID NOT work!!! i'm really running out of ideas to remedy this. i've been drnking lots of water... weeeeeell, maybe not yesterday, but really, i've been drinking lots n lots of water and eating lots and lots of fruits and i'm still constipated!!!!!!! help... i think i need to go get some laxative to help me.

sleeplessness

another sleepless night! T_T i feel so worn out. no... i'm not as scared or paranoid as the previous night. just couldnt sleep. sigh... was tossing and turning and staring up at the ceiling wondering if CYK would be coming back tonight and if he chooses to come back, then i'd have to drag my lazy fat arse to open the door for him. yeesh people, he's got a curfew!!!! his key magnet thingie wont work after 11pm!!! mwahaha!!!! and as of tonight at midnight/tomorrow morning he wont be 17 anymore. he'll be 18! and no more curfew. might as well make good use of today to tease him about him being under age. after today, no more teasing!!! T_T sigh... i'm so tired. feel so drained and lifeless. in any case, i'd better make good use of myself. my laundry desperately needs attending to.

shhhhh......

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天 睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的 我想你已表现的非常明白 我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得 你说你也会难过我不相信 牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经 希望他是真的比我还爱你 我才会逼自己离开 你要我说的多难堪 我跟本不想分开 为什么还要我用微笑来带过 我没有这种天份 抱容你也接受他 不用担心得太多 我会一值好好过 你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开 为什么我连分开都遣就着你 我真的没有天份 安静的没有这么快 我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你 安静- jay chou i dont know why... i can really relate to his songs. maybe it reminds me of my past, reminds me of how much someone used to love me until....

NIKKI KAH!!!!!

NIKKI KAH LEE YEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!! U TRYING TO GIVE ME HEART ATTACK AR!!!!!!!! me ur mommy dearest~ is this how you treat ur mommy dearest?!!!! scaring the shit out of her?!! u bad daughter!!! i make u sleep in this room without ur hubby then u know!!!! yer!!!!!!! T_T u bully me!!! i cry!!!! i sleep with the lights on and throw my blankie away....not like that would help la... yeeeer!!!!! =( bad bad bad bad bad nikki!!

poor teach'

today is so not vk's (my bio teacher) day. that poor guy. watever he does is bound to go wrong. he went to class this morning only to realize that everything is still not prepared, then he was giving year11 students a trial test, but after 20 minutes, the fire alarm went off, in our class, 2 of the OHP didnt work, and the retractable board decided to not retract and poor VK couldnt write anything on the board cuz it was covering almost the entire board. and the good news is, he let us off early by an hour!!!! wohooo!!! i've decided to drop physics. but whether or not glenn lets me drop it is another matter after all i've got a 72 average on the sub. sigh... but i'm really not interested in it and so far this term, i really couldnt catch up with what gordon was teaching. maybe its because i'm not putting in much effort. watever the cse, i really hope he lets me drop physics. i just wana concentrate on math and get my grades up. at least math i still can understand a wee bit more than physics. *cross fingers and toes* yesshhh!!! 3 more months and i'll be home free!!! cant wait!!! 90 or so more days!!! yeaash!!!! on this day in nov, i'll be fyling home to me parents, to me baby, to me room, to me bed, to me piano, to me car, to me.... watever. yeash!!! but... haih... 3 more months! speaking of going home, i hope my 'dady' is free enough to come help me pack. ah... miss my dear 'dady' so much!!!

scaaaaaaaaaaaary

baaaaaaaaaad baaaaaaaaaaad baaaaaaaaaaaad nite last nite. nikki was telling me some scaaaaaaaaary stuff. the thing is, she didnt even go into the details and i'm already scaaaaaaaaaared outta my mind! i dun do scaaaaaaaary stuff! i couldnt sleep for the whole nite so today is another self declared holiday, well, for half the day. so? i'm a pussy! sue me!! meeeeeeow!!!! nikki, dun tell me scary shit no more... no matter how interested i may seem to wana hear it!!! wokay? wokay? wokay?!!! winnie is coming tomorrow. cant wait! and we still have yet to figure out where to bring her for dinner!

no win

dinner was bad! it was horrible!!! the only thing that i could taste was the.... Chilly powder. why cant sarah make an effort to cook better? or at least make it not so tasteless??? its really depressing eating tasteless food day after day after day after day after day after day!!!! and my table lamp is annoying me! its bright one second, then dims the next, then turns bright again, then dims again, then bright, dim, bright, dim, bright, dim!!!! agh. its giving me a bloody headache!!! but if i switch it off the room will be a wee bit too dark. and last night, the wind was so strong it blew in sand, sand, and more sand, and so much more sand, so much sand to actually cover my whole table with sand. sand sand sand sand. and my room is in the 2nd floor. and i juz cleaned my table on the weekend!!!! now its all dirty and disgusting and sandy..... sand.... sigh... guess you just cant win, can you?

最爱的歌

爱像一阵风 吹完它就走 这样的节奏 谁都无可奈何 没有你以后 我零魂失控 黑云在降落 我被它拖着走 静静悄悄默默离开 陷入了危险遍缘 baby 我的世界已狂风暴雨 爱情来得太快 就像龍捲风 离不开暴风圈 来不及逃 我不能再想 我不能再想 我不 我不 我不能 爱情走得太快 就像龍捲风 不能承受 我已无处可躲 我不要再想 我不要再想 我不 我不 我不要再想你 不知不觉 你已经离开我 不知不觉 我已经跟了这节奏 后知后觉 又过了一个秋 后知后觉 我可好好生活

龍捲风 - jay chou

the past

并不是真的过路而已 也不是真的不会想你 全不是真的是骗自己 其实还爱你爱着你 我以为我早想清楚 不由自主恍恍惚惚 又走回头路再看一眼有过的辛福 爱情好像流沙 我不挣扎 随它去吧 我不害怕 爱情好像流沙 心里的军挂 不愿放下 oh baby 让我这样吧 并不是真的过路而已 也不是真的不会想你 全不是真的是骗自己 其实还爱你爱着你 我以为我早想清楚 不由自主恍恍惚惚 又走回头路再看一眼有过的辛福 爱情好像流沙 我不说话 等待黑暗 让泪能落下 爱情好像流沙 明知该躲它 无法自拔 oh baby 是我 太傻 是一再的做 一再的错 不由我 我一步一步一步一步慢慢走向流沙 爱情好像流沙 我不挣扎 随它去吧我不害怕 爱情好像流沙 心里的军挂 不愿放下 oh baby 让我这样吧 david tao - 流沙

oral presentation

oral presentation was a total bummer!!! we were all over the place! jumping scenes, getting into each other's lines. and mr student-know-it-all-rep decided to go dumb today. he said yesterday he would go back and thing about it. but nooooooooo.... he didnt do shit. he came in this morning and asked me "beckie, wat was i supposed to say at the end again?" WTF! i knew we were ruined! well, when we were talking about it yesterday, he kept telling us that he'd look into it at home. we trusted him. and wat did he come up with today? sheeeeeeet!!!! oh well, no use crying over spilt milk. hope for the best and see what happens.

bad

had a really really really really bad dream last nite. no flowers or rainbows sprouting from my ears. =( i can still see the bodies twitching in their coffins... this dream will most probably haunt me for the next few weeks. sigh...

better

whopdedo. i feel a tad better. flowers sprouting from my ears. and we got the english oral done in.... 45 minutes!!!! mwahaha... i hope our presentation goes well tomorrow. *cross fingers and toes* just heard from nikki that dino got hospitalized cuz of dengue. oh my... well, hope he recovers soon.

good job... not

look, i am sick ok?! sick, jatuh sakit, shen bing, beng zho, biang hoi, be liao!!!! which part of the word dont you people understand?! i am fucking sick and i need my fucking rest! how the hell am i supposed to get well if i dont rest?! i've got a massive, massive headache and my nose hurts, and my neck hurts, fuck it! every part of my body hurts!! stop disturbing me and let me rest!!! why is it that you people depend on me so much?! you guys have brains for a reason! its there for you to use it! its there so that you fuckers can think! why is it that i have to do all the thinking for you people?! can't i just have one day of proper rest?!!!! get your lazy asses together and discuss what the problem is!!! state your idea! if u havent got a fucking idea, then think of one!!! dont just go 'oh.. i've got no idea. u think' WTF?! and this is supposed to be a group discussion?!! spiders resided in your brain cavity?! nice fat juicy worms ate your brain?! your brain just suddenly grew legs and ran away?!!! c'mon! i really dont need this from you guys ok?! i did not decide to be leader. but when i dont speak, non of you idiots will talk. i need to ask each and everyone of you what you think before you speak up! sigh... what's with you guys?!!

doc visit.

juz came back from the doc. weeeeell, good news is i DO NOT have sinusitis (spell?)... big big big relief. bad news, i'm coming down with a cold. a huge one at that. of all the times that i have colds, this is the one that hurts most. no prescriptions for me. yippeee!!!! she said that the only thing i have to do is unblock my nose to prevent sinusitis. ritey. ugh... i'm in so much pain!!!!

mmm... sleep.

good morning all you booootiful people out there!!! i'm still not fine and dandy as a matter of fact, after sleeping for 12 hours last night, i woke up with an even bigger headache!!! and my neck hurts, my eyes hurt, the pressure building in my facial bones is killing me!!!! gona go to the doc's at 10am later. hope the doc doesnt prescribe the wrong med, ay? my aunt tells me docs here got a reputation for wrong prescriptions. >.<

love?

THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A GUY If you see me walking the road with someone else It's not because I like his company Its because you're not brave enough to walkbeside me. If you hear me talking about him all the time Its not because he pleases me Its because you're too deaf to hear myheartbeat If you feel me falling with someone new Its not because I love him Because you're not there to catch me fall If you feel lost, I too am nowhere I too don't know where the road is going Are we gonna cross each other's path Or just completely turn around? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound Don't let me walk with himIt's you I want to walk with Don't let me talk of him It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for him It's you I want to fall in love with. "HOW THE GUY REPLIED" When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you I was behind you every step of the way Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands before me When you thought I was too deaf to hear yourheartbeat I didn't want to assume anything And I was afraid to lose our friendship When you thought I wasn't there to catch you It was because you never gave me the chance You never reached the bottom, you've alreadygrabbed a branch If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost I too don't know where the road is going Are we just going to turn around, Or are we gonna cross each other's path? Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk alone I want to walk by your side Don't let me talk of something else It's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for someone else It's you I want to fall in love with. WHEN I SAW YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU... WHEN I TALKED TO YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU... WHEN I HOLD YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU... NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ... I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU... YESTERDAY IS HISTORY... TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY... AND TODAY IS A GIFT... THAT'S WHY IT'S CALLED A PRESENT... SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS... BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT... THEN IT ISN'T LOVE... HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE... BEFORE THEY SLIP AWAY... OR ELSE U CAN NEVER GET THEM BACK... I WAS BORN WHEN YOU KISSED ME... AND I DIED WHEN YOU LEFT ME... BUT I LIVED FOR THE MONTHS U LOVED ME... UNTIL THERE WAS YOU, I CRIED MYSELF TO SLEEP... WHILE I HAD YOU, I FELL ASLEEP WITH A GENTLE SMILE ON MY FACE... BEFORE I LOST YOU, I WORRIED MY SELF TO SLEEP... NOW THAT I KNOW UR GONE, I SIT UP AT NIGHT, WAITING FOR U TO COME BACK... read this in friendster and it reminded me of the ordeals that me and my baby went through. sigh.. i miss him.

sigh

everything is not fine. i'm not sprouting flowers from my ears. sigh... i'm still sick. as a matter of fact, it worsened over night. i think its the sinus. i can feel the pressure in my facial bones, the back of my eyes, around my forehead and my head hurts so bad!!! took panadol 650 an hour ago and my head is still hurting and the fever is still there. gona go to for a doc visit if things still doesnt look up. feel so weak and cold and painful. pls let it go away!!! =(

official

yes, people, i am officially sick!!! running a fever now. i want my daddy!!!! This is seriously no good. i'm surprised how fast my body deteriorates. i was still fine and dandy this morning when i woke up... but now... sigh... i really really really want my mommy n daddy!!! *sulks*

sick...ugh

i think i'm sick. my head feels like a ton of bricks has just decided to reside in my skull, i'm starting to cough, i'm getting noseblocks and my voice... is starting to sound weird. me no wana get sick!!! and i'm constipated!!!! sigh... my tummy no feel good. me need to sheeeeet, but sheeeet no come out, sheeeeet stay in me. its poisoning me!!!! hope it all goes away by tomorrow! oh... tomorrow... i haven't thought about my oral presentation. can i not go to school tomorrow??? pls? pls? pls? puhleeeeeeeez? pls with sugar on top? biaaaatch!!

all is good

WC is coming next week!!!! cant wait to see her! cant wait to see her! cant wait to see her! i'm so excited that i'm hyperventilating!!! just miss her soooo much! nikki, i hope our master plan works!!! and my bro is letting me stay over in his place when i go over to kl in jan! yes! can save on accomodation and it'd be a bonus if mom and dad sends him the car by then. and it'll be intensive shopping for 5 days!!!! mwahaahaha!! i hope i find something to buy. dun wana end up like nikki, not getting to buy anything. and lets just hope that he doesnt get too critical about my man. yes!!! its all working out! oh oh oh, and i hope my dad gets his benz soon!!! hehehe... new car to drive!!! weeeeeell, tat is if he lets me touch it! life is so good!!! in any case, i really need to get started to my assignments. been putting it off since morning.

journey

just finish watching xun zhao zhou jie lun (looking for jay chou). quite boring and long winded but nevertheless a deep and meaningful movie. and jay actually appeared in the movie!!! its about this broken hearted girl that decided that go to HK in search of her beloved jay chou cd cuz there was this hidden track in it that she and her ex played when they were making love for the 1st time. blah blah blah fart fart fart... and the moral of the story is... that the journey undertaken and wat you learn and discover is more important than the outcome. its all about self discovery, people. self discovery!!! anyways, caught up with a loooooong lost friend last night. well, not actually my friend but my net friend. went out on a few dates with him and weeeeeeeeell, he's quite flattering and sweet and can really woo girls... its really surprising that he's still single. found out that he returned to sandakan. guess he closed his company. oh well, hope to see him soon. (i hope my baby doesnt read this. he's sooooooo not gona like this!) YEAH!!! WCSM is coming next weekend!!! nikki!!!! u hear me?! need to think of things to do la~

my boss my hero

hellooooooo to all you beeeeeeautiful people put there! today is a self declared holiday. and wat do i do? instead of getting my homework done, i turn to the pile of cds next to me and randomly picked a movie to watch. no regrets there. the movie was great. My Boss My Hero. a korean movie. its funny, its witty, it violent... weeeeeeell, a wee bit too violent for me but its still good. the story revolves around this gangster guy, who i forgot the name. shu dik or something, who had to be put back in high school because his current education qualifications is not suffice for him to be incharge of an area, in which i again forgot the name. overall, a good movie. and its high time i stop procrastinating and get my lazy arse back to work. =(

man and girl

man: still awake, little one? girl: yes. i was waiting for you. man: aww... you silly girl. you shouldn't have. come. the girl leaps into the man's arms, the feeling of joy sweeping over her. she's been waiting all day just for this moment. girl: are you gona take me around the world today? man: ofcourse i am. he then sweeps her up and twirls her round and round. the girl clutches onto him tightly and laughs gleefully as he spins her. after a few spins, he then proceeds to tuck her into bed. girl: *whines* i want more! man: *firmly but gently* no. this will be enough today. its time to go to bed now. girl: will u take me again tomorrow? man: ofcourse i will. close your eyes now. go to sleep. *gently strokes her hair until she falls asleep* how i wish moments like these lasts forever.

part 2

yes! its another lock-poor-ol-beckie-out-of-hostel-door part 2!!!! n this time i got my fingers on him but weeeeeeeeeeeeeeell, he's just being kiasu and didnt wana admit that it was KILLING him!!!! mwahahaha!!!! i am gona make u screech like a girl next time!!!

poor me

another lock-poor-beckie-out-of-hostel-door session! T_T wait till i get my hands on u!! you'll be BEGGING me for mercy! muahaha!!

choices

my childhood friend told me that she might consider coming to melbourne for a visit if i'm free and if she finds accomodation. no problem~ she can stay over in my hostel. i'm sure my room mate would be fine with her staying over. but then... my aunt will also be coming around the same time as my childhood friend intends to come. sigh... i really miss her!! i wana see her, talk to her, gossip about things, catch up on old times. but with my aunt around, i cant do those things cuz i'll be spending time with my aunt instead. *bangs head on the wall repeatedly* wat should i do?! should i tell her to come anyways?but if she really comes, i fear i wont have time for her. but i wana see her!!! and i wont be seeing her at the end of the year cuz she might be going to the US to see her mom!! if i miss this chance to see her, i dont know when we will see each other again. damnit!!! sigh... i wana see her! maybe i should stop whining. but... but... i wana see her!!!! *pout pout pout*

my day in 9 dot points

• met up with yun joong today! havent seen her since....june or so? *huggiez*.... =)
• got a slight sunburn. =(
• recieved off9 msgs from my bestest best friend! =)
• i think i'm getting sick. =(
• had a chat with a long lost friend (well, lost for a couple of months anyways) =)
• have a huge headache. =(
• gona go grocery shopping tomorrow. =)
• realized that i'm turning 20 next year! not a teen anymore! boo hoo hoo!!! =(
• i'm growing up!!! =)

and this is getting stupid. have a nice day to all you boooooootiful people out there.

things i dont like

if its one thing that i really HATE about some people, its the way they don't show appreciation for the things that you've done for them. instead of saying thank you, they complain and complain and complain and complain. i mean WTF! if you're not gona show appreciation for wat i do for you, then jerk off! go screw yourself! go suck a wrinkled, herpes infested dick! you do not deserve my friendship and i do not need 'friends' like you in my life. the world would be a better place if each one of you bastards drop dead. sam, u know you've done your best. forget about her. no point getting upset over people like her who just canot show the least bit respect or appreciation for your efforts and i hope that this will be the last time you'll need to put up with her.

the mother of mother of all maulitness!

ok ok ok. tis is wat i just found out from a friend of mine. WFY: hey, beckie. u know wat our new 5 star toilet in our ex-high school is called? me: fill me in. WFY: 'ai xin che suo' (loving toilet) no shit! the headmaster named the new 5 star toilet as ai xin che suo! =-=" i mean... of all the things, he names it ai xin che suo!!! and they've even got heart shaped tiles installed in the toilet!!!!! and worse of all, he's promoting the toilet like nobody's business so that the whole of kk, sabah knows that our school has got some sort of 5 star toilet named ai xin che suo or something. seriously, wat is the headmaster thinking?!!!! i really would like to personally cut his head open and find out just how his brains work! it sounds so.... so.... perverted!!!! oh my... the school just canot get any weirder!!! thank goodness i graduated before the new toilet was completed. ai xin che suo???!!!! of all the things... ai xin che suo! tat is sooooo farked up!!!!! =-="

very un-me

i don't feel like myself these days. i've been spending a lot of time alone... more than i can remember. its a record for me. these days, i just wana spend time alone, chill out in my room and watch movies off my laptop else study. i dont crave going out or spend time with people anymore. as a matter of fact, i dont even talk all that much anymore. i used to be full of energy, jumping up and down, left and right, i used to crave human contact, play around and just be plain silly... but now... i'm not complaining. i'm pretty much comfortable with the way i am. it just suddenly hit me how much i've changed in just a couple of months. its scary. i guess maybe its the fact that i still feel homesick despite being away from home for so many months. i feel sad, nostalgic... its like the life in me is slowly diminishing with each day that i spend away from home. dont give me the crap saying how i need to be more independent and what shit. i'm pretty sure i am independent, i can do things on my own, or at least i'm trying to. well, this place just isnt home. i've settled down and everything but its still not home. there is no sense of belonging here. even the friends that i've made sometimes dont really seem to be my friends at all. sometimes, i feel that we're all just putting up one big facade, pretending to like each other cuz the fact is, we're all alone out here, in this foreign city. forgive me, but its the way i feel at times. well, maybe i should just be thankful for what i've got. after all, these friends that i have are wonderful people. sure, there's that occasional misunderstanding but in the end, we always forgive and forget. maybe its just me lacking that sense of security or whatever else. in any case, i hope i snap out of it soon. i dont wana end up friendless in the end.

heart palpitations

i think i'm having heart palpitations. i ran a google search and the symptoms described are exactly what i'm feeling! ok, so this is wat i found. symptom 1: rapid or irregular heart beats... check! dady always says that i've got a rapid heart beat around 90 or so whenever he reads my pulse. symptom 2: skipping beats... tis i'm not so sure. symptom 3: fainting... well, i havent exactly fainted, but i do feel faint once in a while. like now. symptom 4: dizziness... i was kinda dizzy yesterday to the point i got nauseous. symptom 5: a feeling like the heart is jumping out of the chest... check! and it hurts a lot!! symptom 6: shortness of breath... not sure of this either. scary shit. i mean... i'm 19!!!! is it possible to get heart palpitations? and WTF, depending on the form of palpitations, it can be life threatening!!!! no shit! but.. wait a minute. it says 'Premature atrial beats may also show up in people who use stimulants such as nicotine and caffiene.' ok ok ok. i admit. i love coffee. but i seriously DO NOT remember having premature atrial beats when or after i drink coffee!! i've always been fine with caffiene. this is really frightening me. note to self: remember to go for an EKG or a blood test when i get back home. p/s: i hope its ok to put if off for a few more months.

me clever? yes? no?

ok ok.. so i have nothing better to do and just then and there, got this pop up that says "take ur iq test here." or something along that line. so i was like 'hm.... y not?' after all, its better than watching mould grow on food and no harm seeing how dumb/clever i am. sooooo..... the results..... *drum roll*....... and here's the result~ Congratulations, bec!Your IQ score is 124 This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Insightful Linguist. This means you are highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. Those skills contribute to your creative and expressive mind. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results. yayness!!!! says that i'm highly intelligent. so then i decided to open my big mouth n tell CYK about it. and he says that he got a whoppin 144 and all of his friends got about the same score. so... does it mean i'm dumb? not so highly intelligent after all? *pouts* c'mon!! i deserve some credit dont i? dont i?! huh? huh? huh?!!! biatch. ok ok ok. another test. a personality test this time. bec, you're an Observer! That means you're one of the more kind-hearted people around. You are unusually intuitive, and you probably understand yourself, as well as others. That also means you're a good mediator — though you may prefer to spend more quiet time on your own than most. Because of the self-knowledge you already possess, you are better equipped than many to steer your life in the right direction. Understanding more about the components of your personality will reveal unique information that even people like you might not realize. And the better you know yourself, the more confident you'll be making decisions that affect your life. weeeeeeeeeell..... this is sort of like me. and according to CYK i'm a NBTD (nothing better to do) person~ =-=" wat can i say? this is me. sit back n enjoy the show ma. on the brighter side of things, at least i understand myself, ay? in a non related issue, the weather has been craaaaaaaaaaap and wet and cold today! it has been raining the whole day! and i'm starting to think that melb weather is suffering from pms. one minute its raining, the next, its all sunny and happy and the skies are clear and blue... and then it starts to rain again... and then it clears up again.... and then it rains again. sheesh!!!

mmm~ bliss!

i'm happy~ as happy as can be~ lalalala *grins* yes!!! its saturday!!!! and guess who is in da house?! yes!!! mr nice-asian-chef!!!! he's one heck of a chef!!! nothing like a good breakfast to kick start the day, eh? mm.... chicken porridge. mr nice asian chef: like the porridge, huh? me: yummy!! wat's for dinner tonite? mr nice asian chef: i'll be making......*drum roll* ..... chicken briyani!!!!!!!! me: YUMMY!!!!!!!! *jumps in joy* somebody hand that man a hugemama, hugeass ice cream for his efforts!!!! cant wait for dinner! cant wait for dinner! cant wait for dinner!! wat can i say? good food makes me happy! oh, CYK~ u missed good breakfast again!! (i can already hear him say 'damnit!') hehe... you should be ashamed of yourself!! c'mon~ at least wake up in time for breakfast every saturday! its good! and you haven't once eaten the porridge mr nice-asian-chef whops up~

yayness!!!

whopdedoo!!!! after spending four hours seventeen minutes and sixteen seconds on my pc, staring into the blinding monitor, reading incredibly small texts, straining my eyes like nobody's business and deciphered texts tat seemed to be arabic, .... i have finally found all that i need to write a whoppin 1000 page book on instrumental analysis!!!! i've got all the info on electrophoresis and chromatography to last me several lifetimes!!! seriously, watching mould grow on food would be a gazillion times more interesting than....instrumental analysis. but in any case, i've gathered all that i need to do this assignment! and for my efforts, i sure as hell deserve a hugeass ice cream!!! make it ice cream with oreos in it~ yayness!!!!

no regrets

you know, i never believe in regrets. this word is non-existent in my dictionary. i've always believed that trying my best to achieve something is suffice. whether or not i succeed, i know i've tried my best. and i've always believed that you have the power to change things. i don't succumb to fate. whether or not something good comes my way, i don't blame it on fate. i believe that we're all here for a reason. whether the reason is good or bad, big or small. and i believe that after fulfulling wat we're here to achieve, we leave this world. we either pass into another realm or be reborn into this world..... oh well, just some nonsensical babble for u readers. ah... another tiring day and it didn't help that i haven't gotten much sleep last nite either. i've always been a light sleeper but last nite was ridiculous!!! i was waking up to every teeeeeny sound i hear. overall, not a very good night. oh oh oh, i called my daddy just now. miss him so much!!! i admit, i'm daddy's little girl~ proud of it!!! oh oh oh, and he bought me a crystal bracelet!! *beams happily* yay!!!! he hasnt gotten me anything for a veeeeeeeeeeeery long time! cant wait to go back home to recieve my pressy!! in another unrelated issue, we finally filled in the application form for uni. yayness!!!! cant wait to get into uni. finally getting to study wat i've always wanted and a step closer to achieving my goals - to one day be a great chiropractor!!!! kinda out of it today. oh well, time to hit the books~ need to get started on my assignment.

one of those days

days like these, i just want someone to cuddle me in their arms, hold me tight, whisper reassurances into my ears telling me that everything will be alright. after all, tomorrow will be a better day, no? but its now... the feeling of emptiness welling up inside me and it doesn't help that YBS is so far away~ maybe its because i'm tired that i'm feeling this way. what ever it may be, i hope i'll be myself again tomorrow.

I'm not a perfect person

There's many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

and so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

The Reason - Hoobastank

this is dedicated to my baby, YBS. just wanted to say.... i'm sorry. i'm sorry i had to put you through such pain. though its over, but the memory of it constantly haunts me. above all, i want to say thank you. thank you for your forgiveness, for your kindness. i have found a reason to start over new, to change who i used to be, to show a side of me you didnt know, and that my love, that reason is you.

make my day

ladies and gentlemen, young girls n boys, beckie is not a very happy girl today. as a matter of fact, i'm PISSED!!!!! yes! PISSED!!!! our mr student-rep-who-thinks-he's-so-popular-and-funny managed to ruin my entire day!!!! well, juz that seeing him ruins my entire day. he was sitting next to me in bio class today. well, not exactly next to me but next,next to me and he keeps going beckie, beckie, beckie every 5 minutes!!!!!! well,... not really every 5 minutes. so? i lied again. sue me!!! but often enough to ANNOY THE HELL OUTTA ME!!!!! mr student rep: beckie. where is tat smartass. didnt u call him? me: well, he's here. turn ur fcuking head 90 degrees to ur left n open ur fcuking eyes big and wide and u'll notice that he's here! in class!!! mr student rep: oh, i didnt see him. look, it really doesnt matter if u see him or not. its non of ur fcucking business whether or not he turns up for class. and it sure as hell isn't ur business whether or not i call him! what we do and don't do is NONE of ur fcucking concern alright?!!!!!! agh, u son of a female cat!!! get ur own bloody life!!!! our lives DO NOT evolve around yours ok?! leave us be you idiot!!! oh, by the way, calling him a smartass is NOT funny!! har har har... i'm laughing my balls out!!!! (wait, i have got no balls. well then, boobbies~!) and we were filling out this survey form tat was supossedly gona tell us our learning styles the other day. n mr student rep here has got no mind of his own!!! he has got the intelligence of a pea!! n there was this section where we were required to note down all of the subjects that we did before entering foundation. there i was happily scribbling down my subjects and mr student rep juz had to call my name~ mr student rep: beckie, beckie, beckie! me: WTF is it?! *clearly annoyed* mr student rep: how many subs we took last year? me: how the fcuk should i know?! i'm not even in the same school as u!!! mr student rep: but u should know! after all, u're an UEC student. (UEC is an exam taken only by chinese independent schools in which we were both in) me: hello!!! we were in different states u idiot!!! i did 12 subs. i duno about u. mr student rep: wha? 12?!!!! tat many?! me: the hell with u! tat was MY school, how the hell should i know about yours?! mr student rep: oh yeah, i think it was 12 as well. me: *clearly annoyed* wateva~ *scribble, scribble, scribble* mr student rep: beckie, beckie, beckie!!!! me: wat?!!!! mr student rep: where got 12 subs o?!!! me: *looking at my other friends for help* mr student rep: lemme see ur paper!!! me: fuck u! i'm writing. mr student rep: *walks over to my table, looks at my paper n started to count how many subs i have written down* wei, where got 12 o?! me: i'm still thinking u idiot!!!! oh oh oh... and i was sick yesterday. yes, thanks to diarrhea. and he was asking about me in english class. awww... wat a sweet fellow... or so you think! mr student rep: hey, where is beckie? friend: she's sick. mr student rep: she is wat?! sick?! haaaaaa??? friend: yes! she is sick!!!! mr student rep: wat sick? friend: diarrhea, o li du, la du zhi, cirit birit, shits water. mr student rep: oh.. haha... she's sick. btw, where is CYK? friend: the hell i know! mr student rep: hm... maybe they went dating or something~ how can beckie fall sick? friend: you son of a female whale! she's sick! mr student rep: hm... i bet they're out having a romantic date. hehehe... friend: ya ya ya!!! they're out on a romantic date. mr student rep: hah! i knew it! =-=" oh boy... somebody help!!! and he's on my english group for the assignment as well!!! *sigh* make my day! i really don't know why i find him so annoying!!!! well, everybdy in class finds him annoying but i... i... he's just so annoying that it makes me speechless. even the mere sight of him makes me wana scratch his balls out!!! no, scratch that, being in the same place, same country makes me wana hurl everything i ate from my stomach, my intestines, my ileum, jejenum, duodenum, ascending colon, transverse colon, descending colon!!!!!!!!!!! agh, he makes me so angry!!!!!! ok.. i guess i am a bit stuck up on this matter. i should just let it go. but today... it really, seriously annoyed me so much~!!! and to think that i need to be doing my english assignment with him!!! *sigh* even my general math teacher doesn't like him! y?!!! y oh y is this happening?!!!! so yeah, this is basically my day~ oh oh oh... good news! i finally got my room cleaned! after putting it off for 3 weeks~ its now sparkly clean!!! well, the floor anyway. just canot live without a clean floor! i feel so proud of myself!!! somebody hand me an ice cream!!!

i feel good

annyonghaseio, mushi mushi, ni hao, nei hou, ngi hao, lu ho, selamat sejahtera, hello!!!!! feeling good and dandy~! the good news is: no more dairrhea! no more diarrhea! no more diarrhea! no more diarrhea!!!whopdedo~!!! the bad news is: i'm constipated again~!!! boo hoo hoo!! i know... talking about my bowel movements is a leeeeeetle revolting, so sue me! *sigh* y!!?? y, oh y is this happening to me??!!! should i start sacrificing goats, cows, chickens, half eaten meals or watever not to the approprite deities so that i can SHIT properly?!!!! in any case, i'll get my lazy ass over to Victoria Market after lunch n get myself some fruits. well, not some, but A LOT of fruits. i'll eat a gazillion portion of fruits a day if it will help me shit properly... watever it takes~ juz lemme enjoy sitting on the throne for once, okay?? okay? oooookaaaay??!!!! anyways, thanks to my daughter nikki, my little bro leslie, boabhansith n not to forget my really really good friend ju hyun for the concern. u guys rock!!!! before i forget,

happy birthday, Rosanna.C!!!

me no feel good

ugh. me no feel so good. me diarrhea, 'o li du', 'la du zhi' or watever u call it. *sigh* and before i came, everyone told me that aussie is sooooooooooo clean~ u wont get diarrhea~ wont get diarrhea my ass!!!! oh, n everyone told me that the water here is soooooo clean u can drink it off the tap. drink it off the tap my ass!!!! ever since i came, its either i have diarrhea or i have constipation. i can never shit properly when i'm here. *sigh* guess this is wat happens when u cant cook, ay? y cant i cook, u ask? well, cuz i live in a hostel (TOAB = Taylors On A'Beckett) n the only thing they provide in the kitchen is a microwave. n no way i'm gona eat off the microwave. i dun wana end up getting leukemia. yes... yes... i know its not proven or anything but i dun wana try it out. i still have a long way to go. anyways, i'ma hit the books~ am i good girl or wat? huh? huh? huh? am i? am i? am i? awww... i know i am~ *pats self on the back*

i take it back

i take back wat i said about the chem assignment. as a matter of fact, thre is no such thing as an optional assignment. its a compulsory to do it. so blame this naive girl for believing wat people tell me~ me no know better... ok ok... in any case, its good to know that they need to do it!!! hehe... no escape for them~ neways, today isnt a good day. for starters, i got the hell annoyed outta me today. all thanks to the stooooooopid student rep i was telling u about. agh~ i juz wana fcuking strangle him!!! can i? can i? cani?!!! son of a female dog he is~ anyways, lets not dwell on this matter, ay? no wana think about it~ oh oh oh, i attempted to study. n study i did!!! but after about 10 minutes, i gave up. its just impossible to read microscopic sized print!!! its headache inducing and it kills my eyesight. so, no~ i'm not gona torture myself like this~ i'm waiting for YBS to call me. sigh.. we havent talked for the past few days. he's bz with work and all. my poor baby. i told him to call me tonite. regardless of the time, juz bloody call me!!! i miss him. and above all, i'm kinda worried about his health. he's been working all nite long for the past few days n i'm afraid that he might get sick. my poor poor baby. *strokes YBS lovingly* rite... i'ma get some shut eye while i wait.

no fair!!!!

hey, all u beautiful people out there~ i'm blogging from school. specifically, in gen math class. i just found out that my friends from another chem class do not need to do the chem assignment. well, its optional. marks wont be counted for it. i mean.... WTF?!!!! its soooooo unfair!!! stooooopid teacher we got~ y? y? y?!!! huh? y?!!!! u biaaatch~ *sigh* no fair. n to think that the assignment is due next friday and i haven't started yet!!!! oh boy... i wana change over!!! but then again, maybe not. heard that she can't teach for peanuts. so... oh well, guess there's a price to pay for getting a good teacher, huh? oh oh oh... n did i tell u? my chem teacher loves me~ hehe... proud to say that i'm the teacher's pet. y, u ask? well, cuz i obtained the highest score in chem~ *pats self on the head* am i a good girl??? am i? am i? am i????? note to self:

1. get started on gen math exercise
2. get started on physics exercise
3. get started on chem assignment
4. get started on bio assignment

and as u can see, i'm slacking off my studies. need to get ma lazy bum movin!!!!! but its kinda hard to. i mean i get sooo tired at the end of the day that its impossible to study!!!! ok... well,... thats a really lame excuse. wat can i say? i'm lazy. i admit! i'm one lazy arse!!

OMG.... i'm soooo bored!!!! beyond bored~ lalalalalallalalalalalalalala..... hahahhahahaha....kakakakakka..... ok, tis is getting stooooooopider by the minute. tis is wat happens when boredome gets the better of me.

oh dear, my class rep is trying to sell ticks for the party coming up this friday. n wat can i say? he's doing a darned bad job at it. u know how he tries to sell the ticks? he goes something like "i go, u go, ok?" n i must add that he's not very popular with us fellow students so like, WHO WOULS WANA GO TO THE PARTAY WITH HIM?! eee... i hope he doesnt read this~ he's right behind me~ oh well, half an hour to go b4 lunch... mmm... lunch~ yummy~~!

breakfast. yes? no?

i'm thinking. should i bother to go down for breakfast? i know... i know... i should right? cuz its the most important meal of the day. it kick starts my brain so that it can function properly through out the day. but heck... i dun feel like it. i mean, i've been eating cereal n milk since i came n its been one hundred and seventy one days!!! yes! one hundred and seventy one days of milk n cereal. i'm sick of it! oh, n we have a choice of bread or cereal. but i'm not a big fan of bread so that's one option down the drain. well, i'm a born whinner, so sue me. i've got so much milk in me if i squeeze my nipples, i think milk would come pouring out. ugh... anyways, i'm just killing time till class starts. i've got chem prac at 8.30 am, n gen math class from 9.30-12.30 and bio from 1.30-430. yes... its a full day today n might i add, a tiring one as well. knowing VK(my chem n bio teacher) he'd hand us a thick wade, and i mean THICK wade of sheets for us to complete before we can leave the class. its only tuesday and i cant wait till friday. oh oh oh... hellboy is coming out on the 19th i think. definately gona catch this. even if i have to beg in the streets to pay for the movie tickets, i'll do it!!!!! oh oh oh... and on saturdays, the arcade in crown got this offer thingie goin on. $15 for the whole nite!!!! whoopee!!! inclusive of every damn game they have in there. i hope my friends wont drag me into this. beckie has got no moneaaaaaaaaaaay!!!! donation, anyone? anyone? pls? please? puuuuuuh-leeeeez??? heh.. muka tebal. oh well, at least i tried~ time to go! catch u beatiful people later. g'day!

mother of all frustrations

concentrate. concentrate. concentrate. c-o-n-c-e-n-t-r-a-t-e!!!! agh!!! just what i need but couldn't do. *sighs* i have a bloody bio test on thursday, n a freakin chem test on friday. have so much to study but the freakin facts just wont stay in my head. stay!!! it's like my brain turned into a freakin sieve. of all the times, this happens to me now. yes, its frustrating. i wana study or rather i NEED to study but how can i? the more i look at the notes, the more frustrated i become! stupid. facts. won't. stay. in. my. head!!!!! *bangs head on the wall repeatedly* oh, someone gimme a chill pill~ maybe i'll juz sleep it off. but i doubt i'll be able to sleep. i'll probably feel so guilty about not studying that i'll get insomnia. *lets out a hugemama sigh*

???

know wat? i still havent a clue on how this fully functions. oh well, in due time.... in due time. you just wait. i may be blogging illiterate for now but i hope things are gona improve with time, ay? i'll just leave the learning for another day. i'm tired. to bed i go. zzzZZZzzz....

woot

1st blog, 1st entry. lets juz hope that i get the hang of this. if u must know, i've got no prior knowledge to coding or watever it is required to create a blog. wish me luck. here i come~